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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Always Running

I am getting tired of running.

Once again today I found myself literally running from the F train platform at Rockefeller Center to my office, as I was for the Nth time a few minutes late for a meeting I've already been warned to be on time for. If I possess one pathological behaviour not inherited from my father, it's being late. It seems that no matter what, I am always and insistently late for whatever it is I'm supposed to do next. Often it's just by a matter of minutes but the lateness is scaled proportionally based on circumstance--so that if it is only a few minutes, then those minutes were probably crucial; if not, the my tardiness will be longer to reach some longer level of crucial failure.

The worst thing about being late is that most of the time it could be generally prevented if I just got my shit together. Today I am going to be late to a staff meeting at work because the L train was delayed 10 minutes, but truly had I gotten to work early this wouldn't have been an issue.

I believe my problem is threefold:

1) A willful desire to add (unnecessary) riskiness and challenges to my life

2) ADHD makes it challenging to unfocus from the last thing i'm doing and move on to the next

3) Greed of wanting to continue enjoying whatever it is i'm engaged in

I do want to overcome my battle with punctuality, but it's not easy overcoming 27 years of rooted behavior.

Labels: BEAUMONT, case studies, deprarious

posted by Nihilist Loves Hate, Hates Everything at 10/28/2009 12:11:00 PM 0 comments

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